Is it weird that on Friday, I went for a 19 mile bike ride right in the middle of all the chaos? Well, weird or not, that's what I did. I hopped on my bike with red puffy eyes and tears and told folks that I needed get out and clear my head. When I came back, I took care of the remaining paperwork that needed to be done that day.
Saturday morning was consumed with gathering info for the death certificate, writing the obituary, and arranging to have it published Sunday morning. In the late afternoon, I went to packet pickup for the Patriot. I got everything ready for the race the next morning unsure whether I would choose to do it or not.
Then I couldn't sleep. Even though I was exhausted, my mind just wouldn't stop. When the alarm went off, I realized that I had neither the energy nor the motivation to do the event. I was soooo tired. Went back to bed and eventually got some rest.
Last night was better, managed some sleep despite a few disturbances from our new puppy. I'll post more on him later.
This morning I found out that the Splash & Dash for next weekend has been cancelled. In the grand scheme of things, I know that it's really not a big deal, but right now, it's just such a huge disappointment to me.
Things are mostly worked out, but we still need to finalize some things. Waiting to hear back from the funeral home. Waiting to hear back from the cemetary. I'm not so good with waiting. It makes me anxious. And I still feel exhausted.
I hope to be back to a more normal routine by Wed or Thu. Whatever I choose to do until then will just be for me. Whether that means I hop on my bike or run or swim or take a much needed nap.
This experience is another reminder not to take races and training too seriously. Enjoy life. Celebrate your good health. And hug the ones you love.
Do what you need to do to get through this week. Keeping you in my thoughts.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the important reminders.
Again, so sorry for your loss. Making plans sometimes helps me get through tough situations. I know what you are going through. I lost my dad 2 years ago and have been exactly where you are. Take care and let me know if I can do anything!
ReplyDeleteSo sorry you're going through this. Thanks for the reminder - we all get caught up in our training so easily. Take time for yourself. *hugs*
ReplyDeleteEnjoy life. Celebrate your good health. And hug the ones you love.
ReplyDeleteYes!
That last bit is such a fantastic reminder.
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear about your Dad. Mine passed away early in life and running was a benefit to keep going.
ReplyDeleteImportant reminders. Sorry about the Splash 'n Dash... but just take the time you need with everything. *hugs*
ReplyDeletehang in there lisa.
ReplyDeleteI think going for a bike ride amidst all that chaos was the perfect thing to do! Sometimes we just need to step away from a situation and clear our heads before we can concur it. Hang in there girl and know that you have a ton of support whenever you need it!
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for your loss and the hard times you are going through at the moment.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you were able to have a moment to yourself on the bike.
Take care.
So sorry to hear about your loss ((()))
ReplyDeleteOh, Lisa, I'm just catching up and I can only say that I am so sorry for the loss of your father no matter, the illness, age or circumstance.
ReplyDeletePlease know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Cycling in the middle of chaos, is totally understandable....you do what you need to do and we will be here for you when you need us.
xoxoxo
I remember running a lot and feeling emotionally drained when dealing with my dad's death many years ago. I'm glad you took the extra time to rest when you could. Big hug to you!
ReplyDeleteJust do what you need to do to get through this week. I see better days ahead.
ReplyDeleteHang in there and take care of yourself.
ReplyDeleteMCM Mama
You are so right Lisa. Take care ((hugs))
ReplyDeleteI don't think it's weird to go for the 19 mile ride. It's your way of workign through things and exercise is always a good, healthy way to do that!
ReplyDeleteGet some more rest; it'll get easier soon. Take care.
You're in my thoughts.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the last paragraph!
{{{Lisa}}}}
ReplyDeleteGlad you went for the bike ride. I think it will help!
Your last paragraph says it all.
ReplyDeletedo what you need to take good care of yourself right now.
thanks for taking time to visit my blog and leave a comment. It means a lot you would take the time despite your recent loss. thank you.
Sometimes you just need to get away to clear your head, whether its a 19 mile bike ride or a quick three mile jog.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to hear everything you have been going through with the loss of your father. I hope you are getting the rest you need and are taking care of yourself. A nice long bike ride seems like a good dose of therapy.
ReplyDeleteYou're in my thoughts.
Thank you for your last paragraph...it is a very good reminder..
ReplyDeleteHugs as you do what you need to do.
Things do work themselves out, but it takes time. And then just when you seem to forget, a memory comes back bringing it all back again. Give yourself time. Everyone grieves in their own time.
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