Thursday, September 10, 2009

For every thing there is a season....

I got the first call while I was at work this morning. Dad hasn't been doing well since April, but this today was different. He was tired of fighting. He didn't want to do this anymore. He was asking if they could just give him something to make him comfortable. They tried to give him oxygen and he took off the mask. They were asking for the family to say it was okay. I didn't know what to say. Called my sister. She talked with the nurse. Satisfied that he was alert and well aware of what he was asking, she told them we were okay with it. We wanted to respect his wishes. I couldn't just sit there in my office crying. I packed up and left. Didn't tell anyone why I was leaving. I wondered if it was normal to start the greiving process while someone was still alive. I cried. Then I just waited. About eight hours after the first call, came the second. Dad had passed away. Now they want to know what to do with the body. Again, I don't know what to say. I called my sister. She says she'll take care of it. And she'll call me back later. I'm sick of crying. My eyes hurt. My head hurts. Everything about this just sucks.

35 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry about your loss, you and yours are in my thoughts and prayers. Having just buried Terron's dad yesterday, I know how you feel about the crying, eyes and head hurting. Thinking of you. **hugs**

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  2. I am sorry to hear about your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you during this tough time.

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  3. I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. {{{HUGS}}}

    MCM Mama

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  4. I'm so very sorry for your loss, Lisa.

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  5. So sorry about your loss. You and your family are in our thoughts and prayers tonight.

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  6. I'm so sorry for your loss. Losing my father was the hardest thing to go through but you will make it through this. He will always be with you.

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  7. Sometimes there aren't enough appropriate words. I'm so sorry.

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  8. ((((hugs)))) I am so sorry to hear your news Lisa

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  9. I am so sorry for your loss and am certain you will retain and cherish your years of wonderful memories.

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  10. Lisa I will never forget receiving a 2am call about my mom . . . . just know that others have gone through what you are going through. Although you grieve in your own way in your own time, you are not alone.

    My heart goes out to you in support and hugs.

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  11. So sorry for your loss, my thoughts and prayers are with you. You and your sister are wonderful girls for honoring his wishes.

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  12. I lost my dad 5 years ago, it does get easier. Hang on to the good memories!!! Hugs & Kisses....

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  13. Oh dear. I have no idea what to say or where to even start. I know that's a very HARD thing to go through, but you have to find peace and reassurance that he's in Heaven now. He's no longer sick, he's no longer hurting, and he's up there having a good time and waiting for YOU to come and join him. He may not be here in the flesh, but he's always with you. *hugs*

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  14. I am so sorry for your loss... words can only go so far in times like these but know that we are all here for you and that he is in a better place. Hugs to you from afar my dear.

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  15. Oh Lisa, I am so sorry. Please know that you and your family are in my prayers as you go through this difficult time.

    I hope it is a comfort for you and your sister that you have each other.

    Again, I am sorry for your loss.

    ((hugs))

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  16. My heart is with you guys...

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  17. I'm so sorry for your loss. Thoughts and prayers for your family.

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  18. I will continue to keep you in my daily prayers, Lisa. That's all I really know to say.

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  19. i am so so sorry :( lots of thoughts love and hugs being sent your way.

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  20. so sorry to hear that lisa. geez, that's not good. at least he was comfortable.

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  21. I am truly sorry Lisa for your loss. I am here for you if you need anything!

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  22. So sorry to hear this Lisa, big hug to you and your family.

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  23. Lisa, I'm terribly sorry to hear this. I know the great sadness of losing a father. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Hugs, cami.

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  24. Lisa, I'm so sorry. I hope you can take solace in your sister and your family. I'll be thinking of you.

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  25. Oh Lisa...I'm so sorry for your loss.

    Your right. It just sucks.

    Sending more {{hugs}} your way...

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  26. Lisa,
    I am sorry for your loss and I am sending love, support, and comfort. Giving you a big hug too. Love.

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  27. I'm so sorry for your loss. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Peace.

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  28. I am not sure how I have missed your posts lately. I am so sorry for your loss. We lost several family members in 2007, 7 total. I remember when my grandma was in the hospital that I was grieving because it was not her. The Dementia and illness had taken over so much that it was no longer her..

    I cannot imagine what it must feel like to lose your father and I am truly sorry

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