My job has stress that comes in waves. Lately the waves have been of the tidal variety and I feel like I'm being swept around beyond my control. Today was a particulary cruddy day.
Wouldn't be so bad if I could just run it off. But with the time change, I'm encountering darkness right when I'm home and able to run. And I just don't like running in the evening dark. Morning dark doesn't bother me so much, but evening dark does. Not sure why, but it does. And when I'm under stress, I don't sleep well. So it's hard to get up early to run because I'm really tired. Bummer.
Wouldn't be so bad if the dishwasher hadn't recently decided to stop functioning. But it did. I'll make a call tomorrow for an appt to have it serviced, but for now we're washing dishes by hand.
Wouldn't be so bad if the dryer was working properly. But it isn't. So it's taking longer to get clothes dried and I'm behind on laundy too.
Wouldn't be so bad if Husband wasn't going to be out of town next week, leaving me to manage all the driving in circles to get kids to and from whereever they need to be on time (rather than our usual divide and conquer approach). Especially since this usually means I need to come in a little late or leave a little early from work which causes me to get further behind at work.
Wouldn't be so bad if my work laptop hard drive hadn't crashed causing me to have to spend a day waiting on a new build only to find that practically every application I need wasn't included in the standard build, requiring a new download/install.
Wouldn't be so bad if the bathroom scale would cut me some slack...just for a few days...so that I didn't start off my challenge to self with my weight going in the wrong direction.
I have a lot of things to be thankful for in my life. A.lot. But right now, my job doesn't seem like it's one of them. And none of those other things on their own would be such a big deal, it's just everything at once that is hard to deal with. But I really seriously need to have the discussion with Husband to reconsider whether I need to be working right now. Life is just too short to be miserable over something as meaningless as a job, don't you think?