Wednesday, January 22, 2014

Mid-week Melt Down

This has been a rough week and keeping it to myself isn't helping. My kids left to go back to school and my husband is traveling on business, so I'm on my own in the middle of one of life's storms. I'm going to lay it all out there.

My mother's health continues to decline. She lives in OH and I live in NM. It's hard to be far away and unable to do much to help. This afternoon she will be transferred to a hospice facility. I know in my heart that this is the best place for her right now, but I'm still sad. I don't know how urgent the situation is. Should I rush out to visit her again now or should I wait a bit? And nobody can find her original papers (power of attorney, will, etc) and I'm told a copy isn't good enough. I don't expect any of you to have the answers, but this is a big part of what is troubling me right now.

My classes started this week. It's been 20+ years since I've been in school. One class is fully online with some online collaboration. The other class is a hybrid with a mixture of online, face-to-face on campus, and web conferencing. None of this online technology existed back when I was in college earlier in my life. Yesterday morning I was thinking that taking two classes while working full time was not the smartest decision and that I should drop one class. But I think I'll give it at least another week before taking any action to drop something.

I was feeling all accomplished about getting up and doing some of my school work early this morning.  Then as I was walking by my refrigerator on my way to work, I saw my half-marathon schedule.  D'oh!  I had completely forgotten about my scheduled workout for today. I can't do it after work because I have a class meeting. Tomorrow's not the answer either because I'm already planning to do run-walks both Friday and Saturday and my body is too fragile for three days in a row.  I'm going to have to let this workout go and figure out how to make everything work next week and in the future.

And then there is normal life stuff going on. Work is busy, but otherwise okay. We still have a small section of fencing that needs to be done, but my dogs haven't escaped since working on it. My glasses prescription is off, but I have a new pair ordered that should arrive soon (fingers crossed that the new prescription works out). We're basically out of groceries and leftovers, but Husband will be home this weekend and we can restock then. Until then I can eat smoothies and yogurt and cereal for dinner if needed.

Life is tough sometimes. I know that "this too shall pass," but when so much is happening at once, it can really get to be overwhelming. When Friday comes and I'm able to run off some of my stress, I am sure that I'll feel better. But until then, don't be surprised if I'm a basket case.

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  1. Be sure that you keep your energy up by eating even if you feel like you're too busy. Healthy smoothies, yogurt and cereal will keep you going until the weekend without a problem. Time for a deep breath!

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  2. *hug*

    When it rains, it pours. I'm very sorry to hear about your mother. That is something that is never fun and never easy. Having everything else piled on top of that just complicated that. Sending positive vibes your way :)

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  3. So sorry about your mom and that everything seems to be hitting the fan at once. Overwhelming for sure. Take care of yourself and don't fret a missed run. Hugs!

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    1. Thanks. I've over the missed run. In the grand scheme, it's just not that important. I'll figure things out...

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  4. I'm sorry you're having a tough time. It must be so hard with your Mum being sick and so far away. That kind of thing really can weigh heavy on your mind - no wonder you forgot your workout. Feel free to vent whenever you need to. I'm pretty sure most of us don't mind and wish we could help in some way.

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  5. {{{Hang in there.}}} I'm sorry to hear about your mom.

    Eventually all the rest will pass.

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  6. I'm so sorry Lisa - this is a huge amount to have to deal with. I'm glad you could lay it out on the blog and whilst I can't think of much practical support to offer you (I wish I could drop by with some meals at the very least!) I am thinking of you and hope things get easier. I would definitely consider deferring one of your classes as it sounds like that's one area you could take control of the amount you have to manage. The difficulties in the others are less easy to deal with, but I'm sure having your husband home will at least give you some extra support soon xo

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    1. thx. still mulling things over about the class.

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  7. Really sorry to hear about your mom. Prayers for you. I find a run in the morning is the best way to keep me going through life struggles. Getting it done early also ensures nothing gets in the way later. Stay strong my friend, thinking of you.

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    1. thank you. ran early yesterday and will do the same today.

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  8. I'm sorry to hear about your mom. That is hard. Take care.

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  10. I hate the weeks when life just dumps its crap on you. Stay strong.

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