This has been a rough week and keeping it to myself isn't helping. My kids left to go back to school and my husband is traveling on business, so I'm on my own in the middle of one of life's storms. I'm going to lay it all out there.
My mother's health continues to decline. She lives in OH and I live in NM. It's hard to be far away and unable to do much to help. This afternoon she will be transferred to a hospice facility. I know in my heart that this is the best place for her right now, but I'm still sad. I don't know how urgent the situation is. Should I rush out to visit her again now or should I wait a bit? And nobody can find her original papers (power of attorney, will, etc) and I'm told a copy isn't good enough. I don't expect any of you to have the answers, but this is a big part of what is troubling me right now.
My classes started this week. It's been 20+ years since I've been in school. One class is fully online with some online collaboration. The other class is a hybrid with a mixture of online, face-to-face on campus, and web conferencing. None of this online technology existed back when I was in college earlier in my life. Yesterday morning I was thinking that taking two classes while working full time was not the smartest decision and that I should drop one class. But I think I'll give it at least another week before taking any action to drop something.
I was feeling all accomplished about getting up and doing some of my school work early this morning. Then as I was walking by my refrigerator on my way to work, I saw my half-marathon schedule. D'oh! I had completely forgotten about my scheduled workout for today. I can't do it after work because I have a class meeting. Tomorrow's not the answer either because I'm already planning to do run-walks both Friday and Saturday and my body is too fragile for three days in a row. I'm going to have to let this workout go and figure out how to make everything work next week and in the future.
And then there is normal life stuff going on. Work is busy, but otherwise okay. We still have a small section of fencing that needs to be done, but my dogs haven't escaped since working on it. My glasses prescription is off, but I have a new pair ordered that should arrive soon (fingers crossed that the new prescription works out). We're basically out of groceries and leftovers, but Husband will be home this weekend and we can restock then. Until then I can eat smoothies and yogurt and cereal for dinner if needed.
Life is tough sometimes. I know that "this too shall pass," but when so much is happening at once, it can really get to be overwhelming. When Friday comes and I'm able to run off some of my stress, I am sure that I'll feel better. But until then, don't be surprised if I'm a basket case.