|very PINK event shirt|
|bike ready to go with number|
Then I remembered the call from my sister. The one where she told me that she had seen mom for the first time since Christmas and didn't recognizer her. That she had lost a lot of weight and was weak and in a wheelchair. And that she probably wouldn't make it though the next year. And a flood of memories and emotions all came back. I told Husband that I wasn't sure that I wanted to do this event this year because it now had some bad memories associated with it. But I decided that if I slept well, I'd just do it anyway.
This morning I got up, got dressed, and started packing the car and had an emotional melt down. I went back to bed and cried for awhile. Then I decided to get going and go do this. I was running out of time and it was now or never. So I grabbed my keys got in the car and headed on my way.
Unfortunately...in the midst of the melt down I guess I forgot to put my helmet in the car (d'oh!). When I showed up at the venue fairly last minute without my helmet, I decided that it simply wasn't meant to be this year and turned around and went home. Yes, I'm sure there were work-around options. I'm probably not the first person to show up without a helmet and probably could have borrowed or bought one this morning at the site, but my heart just wasn't in it.
We're now on plan B for the day, a bike ride with Husband.
Maybe the aqua-bike or tri will happen for me next year. But this year I'm a DNS.
Updated to add:
Plan B turned out to be a 32 mile bike ride on a path that was mostly new to me. I really enjoyed it. So at the end of the day, it's all good. No harm; no foul. Here are a few photos from the ride:
|potty stop at a library. bathroom mirror selfy fail. hahah|
|our bikes resting at a pit stop|
|a cool looking old tree. love the bark pattern.|